My blog has been dead recently.
WELL NO MORE
I found out the reason it wasn't letting me publish new entries and the reason no comments showed up was because my hosting company had some kind of technical problem with blogger, and they just wouldn't co-operate. So I'm resorting to putting this on the blogspot page at least for the moment until something more permanent can be worked out. Hopefully, I'll be back on my old domain within the month, but, whatever.
I also... have a brand new computer (new motherboard, CPU, graphics card) and have finally been connected to the internet, which means that I can post without going in to Southlands and being annoyed at everything and giving up.
Well, in case you didn't read the last post (which is likely because although it's about a month old, it's only just been published), I am now dating Kiana, which shocked me and made me very happy at the same time. She's been in California for almost a month now though, and I have missed her much. But, it's only eleven days until she gets back (I installed the Google IG Countdown widget, it's great).
The computer's set up and magically sixty four bit, which means I can play...
Half Life 2-64
... which sounds like a dream come true, and will allow me full use of my unnecessarily expensive graphics card.
In other news, I also became very interested in Reason, and have since its installation, purchased a keyboard (MIDI), and a having a silly time making techno songs. Watch out for my greatest hits, which are coming soon.
I won't make this update too lengthy, but I will update from now. Hope to see you all in the near future.
Saturday, 14 January 2006
Wednesday, 21 December 2005
Brief Continuation
OK, if you hadn't guessed, I fancy Kiana. And although I didn't mention it, a few days before that last post, we got together, and I have been extremely happy since.
Sadly, she's back in California for the mean time, and I'm left with only her photo. But she'll be back in about a month. Anyway, for most who read this, that was all obvious.
As Stacy said to us, "[Of everyone, ]I think you two were the last to know about it.".
Well, since my post, I drove Carlos to the airport, and just like the last time I was with Carlos at an airport, a few days later I built a computer. Henny Ray arrived with my PC components and I spent a long time last night constructing it. I cleaned my whole acrylic case (I mean clean as in polished). I have set up Windows XP and moved all my old music and video and television and images over, as well as software. Tonight I'm going to install Doom 3 and Windows Vista.
But enough about me, let's talk about me.
And I signed up for Bulldog internet. I resigned, realising that Be internet would take too long. I can't wait until March. So I'll have internet, and I'll be able to Skype Kiana when we get it. Man, I can't wait.
Anyway, KK if you're reading, many kisses, speak soon.
The rest of you don't get kisses. Sorry.
Sadly, she's back in California for the mean time, and I'm left with only her photo. But she'll be back in about a month. Anyway, for most who read this, that was all obvious.
As Stacy said to us, "[Of everyone, ]I think you two were the last to know about it.".
Well, since my post, I drove Carlos to the airport, and just like the last time I was with Carlos at an airport, a few days later I built a computer. Henny Ray arrived with my PC components and I spent a long time last night constructing it. I cleaned my whole acrylic case (I mean clean as in polished). I have set up Windows XP and moved all my old music and video and television and images over, as well as software. Tonight I'm going to install Doom 3 and Windows Vista.
But enough about me, let's talk about me.
And I signed up for Bulldog internet. I resigned, realising that Be internet would take too long. I can't wait until March. So I'll have internet, and I'll be able to Skype Kiana when we get it. Man, I can't wait.
Anyway, KK if you're reading, many kisses, speak soon.
The rest of you don't get kisses. Sorry.
Tuesday, 13 December 2005
So Far
I knew it was a fantasy: an update every day or more often. And for a while, I was capable of that kind of frequency, but as of late I have not been able to maintain that kind of dedication. My brief times online are restricted to downloading as many albums and movies and various commodities in massive hoards while I wait for an internet connection in my house. And I have been waiting a while. It should have arrived by now, but it hasn't, and I'm still stuck waiting for it.
The last update I made was a picture of the Rootkit controversy personified. While the controversy has died down, it's still relevant. However, I did update it as an image to a higher resolution and made it landscape with a new office and new backdrop and a slightly edited EULA.
But that's not what's happened in my life.
I've had an extremely bizarre time since my last actual update. My life has changed completely. Paradigms have fallen and broken and changed so dramatically that I'm still convinced that it isn't real. What I expected of myself has been completely changed around and bounced out of the window and back. If these metaphors aren't making much sense, then you have no hope for the actual story, or at least the reasons behind it.
It's been over a month since an actual content based update, and that's ridiculous. Especially since it's been one of my more memorable months. I mean, that's how long I was in Japan for! Ages! But it's been almost six weeks, and so I'm going to fill you in on what I remember.
We had the Hallowe'en party, and everything changed through that. It was after the party that I summonned the courage to ask out the girl I liked, and after the party that I started to become good friends with Kiana. Both of those had a dramatic effect on my life. One more than the other.
After the last main entry, I went and asked out Laura, the cute Chinese girl I had liked for a while. What surprised me is that she said yes, but after she came back from Northern England, which would be in a week. For that time, I was very happy. I mean, finally happy that I liked someone and they liked me too. What helped is that my new friend Kiana gave me so much good advice and support throughout it. In childish foolishness, I told everyone I could. I tried to keep it hush hush, but I was so excited that I just didn't. That's what made it hurtful when it all fell through after she came back. Without going into any details, it was nobody's fault, it just couldn't happen, and that was sad.
Emma was very helpful throughout that, as was Kiana, as they both were very supportive and logical. But I still felt bad, but optimistic, as I usually do. I think I summed it up to Emma by saying, "It's ok, this time I got really close!".
Not being with Laura, I had more time to spend with my friends, and in that time I got to know Kiana better, I spent more time with Emma and 'the gang', and I spent time making posters for the Christmas party. Ultimately I'd hoped for a better poster than the one I ended up doing, but it wasn't too bad. I also started Role Playing with Carlos, Ross and Kiana, and soon Sam joined as well. That was quite fun, I revived the character of Anivers and made him just as self doubting but arrogant as ever.
Off topic, but my loan finally arrived. I finally had some cash to throw about, and I spent a lot of it on upgrading my computer. And this is a serious upgrade. In 5 days, it arrives from America: AMD Athlon 3800+ X2 Dual Core, Asus motherboard and a X1800XL 256MB graphics card to boot, as well as some accessories to make it swish. I'll be building it soon. I still don't have internet though. :(
I also went to my first Bop. It was pretty terrible, but the music got better towards the end, and I spoke with Xing for a bit too. People kept stealing my hat (the one I bought for Hallowe'en but loved too much to stop wearing). It was that night though, that started my main life changes. I stayed over at Kiana's place and the next two nights she stayed over at mine. The next night I had to work doing the scanning work for my mother, and the next day, everything changed.
I realised that not seeing Kiana that night, I had genuinely missed her a lot. That day I saw Qian, and she just wasn't as attractive as I had remembered. She looked the same, I just didn't find her as attractive. It was then I knew it: I no longer liked Asian women. I mean, they're still pretty, but I no longer had a serious thing for them. In none that I saw, I didn't see what I used to. The 'Yellow Fever', as some called it, had passed. After the JCS meeting that night, Sam and Kiana came round to my place and with Emma we all stayed up late chatting. It was then that I decided to announce it.
When Carlos found out about that, his immediate question was, "So now you like Californian girls?". He was right. I did. Since I started this blog, I have had a thing for Asian women, and as of Tuesday the 6th of November, that ended. I still have the desire to learn Japanese and live there in the future, so, as I insisted all along, the enjoyment of Asian culture was not fuelled by sex.
Anyway, I have to revise for exams now, but a big shout out to my main Snowman, Helgi! Thank you for the Icelandic chocolate. I'll update soon and continue my life changing story of the last six weeks. I'll tell you about the new computer as well.
The last update I made was a picture of the Rootkit controversy personified. While the controversy has died down, it's still relevant. However, I did update it as an image to a higher resolution and made it landscape with a new office and new backdrop and a slightly edited EULA.
But that's not what's happened in my life.
I've had an extremely bizarre time since my last actual update. My life has changed completely. Paradigms have fallen and broken and changed so dramatically that I'm still convinced that it isn't real. What I expected of myself has been completely changed around and bounced out of the window and back. If these metaphors aren't making much sense, then you have no hope for the actual story, or at least the reasons behind it.
It's been over a month since an actual content based update, and that's ridiculous. Especially since it's been one of my more memorable months. I mean, that's how long I was in Japan for! Ages! But it's been almost six weeks, and so I'm going to fill you in on what I remember.
We had the Hallowe'en party, and everything changed through that. It was after the party that I summonned the courage to ask out the girl I liked, and after the party that I started to become good friends with Kiana. Both of those had a dramatic effect on my life. One more than the other.
After the last main entry, I went and asked out Laura, the cute Chinese girl I had liked for a while. What surprised me is that she said yes, but after she came back from Northern England, which would be in a week. For that time, I was very happy. I mean, finally happy that I liked someone and they liked me too. What helped is that my new friend Kiana gave me so much good advice and support throughout it. In childish foolishness, I told everyone I could. I tried to keep it hush hush, but I was so excited that I just didn't. That's what made it hurtful when it all fell through after she came back. Without going into any details, it was nobody's fault, it just couldn't happen, and that was sad.
Emma was very helpful throughout that, as was Kiana, as they both were very supportive and logical. But I still felt bad, but optimistic, as I usually do. I think I summed it up to Emma by saying, "It's ok, this time I got really close!".
Not being with Laura, I had more time to spend with my friends, and in that time I got to know Kiana better, I spent more time with Emma and 'the gang', and I spent time making posters for the Christmas party. Ultimately I'd hoped for a better poster than the one I ended up doing, but it wasn't too bad. I also started Role Playing with Carlos, Ross and Kiana, and soon Sam joined as well. That was quite fun, I revived the character of Anivers and made him just as self doubting but arrogant as ever.
Off topic, but my loan finally arrived. I finally had some cash to throw about, and I spent a lot of it on upgrading my computer. And this is a serious upgrade. In 5 days, it arrives from America: AMD Athlon 3800+ X2 Dual Core, Asus motherboard and a X1800XL 256MB graphics card to boot, as well as some accessories to make it swish. I'll be building it soon. I still don't have internet though. :(
I also went to my first Bop. It was pretty terrible, but the music got better towards the end, and I spoke with Xing for a bit too. People kept stealing my hat (the one I bought for Hallowe'en but loved too much to stop wearing). It was that night though, that started my main life changes. I stayed over at Kiana's place and the next two nights she stayed over at mine. The next night I had to work doing the scanning work for my mother, and the next day, everything changed.
I realised that not seeing Kiana that night, I had genuinely missed her a lot. That day I saw Qian, and she just wasn't as attractive as I had remembered. She looked the same, I just didn't find her as attractive. It was then I knew it: I no longer liked Asian women. I mean, they're still pretty, but I no longer had a serious thing for them. In none that I saw, I didn't see what I used to. The 'Yellow Fever', as some called it, had passed. After the JCS meeting that night, Sam and Kiana came round to my place and with Emma we all stayed up late chatting. It was then that I decided to announce it.
When Carlos found out about that, his immediate question was, "So now you like Californian girls?". He was right. I did. Since I started this blog, I have had a thing for Asian women, and as of Tuesday the 6th of November, that ended. I still have the desire to learn Japanese and live there in the future, so, as I insisted all along, the enjoyment of Asian culture was not fuelled by sex.
Anyway, I have to revise for exams now, but a big shout out to my main Snowman, Helgi! Thank you for the Icelandic chocolate. I'll update soon and continue my life changing story of the last six weeks. I'll tell you about the new computer as well.
Tuesday, 15 November 2005
Not Much Here
Not that I have been using this much, especially not for technical affair commentry, but I think this is relevant.
In case you can't tell, it's in reference to the Sony DRM rootkit controversy.
In case you can't tell, it's in reference to the Sony DRM rootkit controversy.
Tuesday, 1 November 2005
Continued Wait
I'm sick of apologising for not updating. That doesn't mean I'm not sorry.
But I should be coming to the end of my dry patch. And I need to make an update because so much has happened.
November has started. That means that Hallowe'en was yesterday. It means that I had a chance to enjoy Hallowe'en properly for the first time. Previously, my Hallowe'en parties had consisted of putting a costume on, and doing very little. This year, Emma planned an amazing Hallowe'en party, and implemented it perfectly to be what I regard as the best party I have ever been to.
I had a use for my party peripherals, such as my smoke machine, my strobe lights, and my colour changing light. I used them all, to amazing effect. The smoke machine was modified so that instead of just pumping out smoke, it piped into the back o Housei's carved pumpkin, and his scary, terrifying face poured out a wonderful volume of smoke, that flavoured the evening perfectly. Almost everyone we invited turned up, as well as Genki, who we didn't expect.
Ki had suggested that we dress as droogs from Clockwork Orange, and after a mad dash on Saturday morning, I had everything, save actual braces and a broom handle for a stick. But I used masking tape for braces, and it worked. Ki did my one eye make up, and she came dressed as one as well, making us a rather terrifying pair. Emma bought enough gauze and bandage to make a horrific mummy, and Housei used the same masking tape as earlier to make a somewhat lacklustre but amusing skeleton. Mizuki was a witch, Dan was a vampire, it was all very uniform. Ultimately, it ended in everyone dancing in a line in a dance that Emma and I had perfected earlier. There was no television, and there was good music until very late. I gave Laura a lift home, and when I came back, some of us watched Alien, though we didn't finish.
I can't describe the perfection that the party had, and I just hope that one day I can recreate it, hopefully with the help of Emma. There was so much dancing, and I really will remember it.
The day after, we watched the rest of Alien, then Aliens, then the second half of Gremlins 2, then Austin Powers Goldmember, then Audition. It was a day of movies. Kiana came over to watch Audition with us, and after the film, when everyone else went to bed, we started chatting, and we didn't stop until 9:45 the next morning. It was the first time that I've had to send someone home because I was too tired. I'd have thought that it wouldn't happen, but it did, and she shamed me with her stamina. Maybe it's the diet.
Anyhow, I have a JCS meeting tonight, and dinner afterwards, I need to go and get ready.
But I should be coming to the end of my dry patch. And I need to make an update because so much has happened.
November has started. That means that Hallowe'en was yesterday. It means that I had a chance to enjoy Hallowe'en properly for the first time. Previously, my Hallowe'en parties had consisted of putting a costume on, and doing very little. This year, Emma planned an amazing Hallowe'en party, and implemented it perfectly to be what I regard as the best party I have ever been to.
I had a use for my party peripherals, such as my smoke machine, my strobe lights, and my colour changing light. I used them all, to amazing effect. The smoke machine was modified so that instead of just pumping out smoke, it piped into the back o Housei's carved pumpkin, and his scary, terrifying face poured out a wonderful volume of smoke, that flavoured the evening perfectly. Almost everyone we invited turned up, as well as Genki, who we didn't expect.
Ki had suggested that we dress as droogs from Clockwork Orange, and after a mad dash on Saturday morning, I had everything, save actual braces and a broom handle for a stick. But I used masking tape for braces, and it worked. Ki did my one eye make up, and she came dressed as one as well, making us a rather terrifying pair. Emma bought enough gauze and bandage to make a horrific mummy, and Housei used the same masking tape as earlier to make a somewhat lacklustre but amusing skeleton. Mizuki was a witch, Dan was a vampire, it was all very uniform. Ultimately, it ended in everyone dancing in a line in a dance that Emma and I had perfected earlier. There was no television, and there was good music until very late. I gave Laura a lift home, and when I came back, some of us watched Alien, though we didn't finish.
I can't describe the perfection that the party had, and I just hope that one day I can recreate it, hopefully with the help of Emma. There was so much dancing, and I really will remember it.
The day after, we watched the rest of Alien, then Aliens, then the second half of Gremlins 2, then Austin Powers Goldmember, then Audition. It was a day of movies. Kiana came over to watch Audition with us, and after the film, when everyone else went to bed, we started chatting, and we didn't stop until 9:45 the next morning. It was the first time that I've had to send someone home because I was too tired. I'd have thought that it wouldn't happen, but it did, and she shamed me with her stamina. Maybe it's the diet.
Anyhow, I have a JCS meeting tonight, and dinner afterwards, I need to go and get ready.
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