Song

It's been so long since I wrote a song, it feels so weird to talk about it. I just had inspiration from how I was feeling and the rhythm of walking down the stairs. It's a simple one, with 'The Tourist' undertones, but I like it. I think Emma needs to help me with the lyrics. I could never do lyrics. But the theme's there, it just needs a bit of honing.

I can't help how I feel. I'm really scared right now, because I've always felt that feeling really great preceded feeling really bad. And I'm still feeling so happy. I drove across London today for Julia on a whim without thought, something I don't usually do, just because I was in a good mood and because I do feel indebted to her as well. But still, I don't usually. So I'm worried that this is all leading to some unexpected and painful fall from happiness. Somehow, I am very sad right now, for the same reasons I am happy, but without getting emo, I am still thankful for the emotion.

But watching 24 today, and spending hours looking for the transcript to paste, I wanted to show you what George Mason said to Michelle Dessler in Episode 17:00 to 18:00. It meant a lot to me, and this is paraphrasing, it still should give the impact of the show.

Mason: Believe it or not, I wanted to be a teacher. And you know what changed my mind? DoD offered me more money. So I made myself miserable, and everyone around me miserable for a measly $5000 more a year. Don't stand around waiting for life to happen to you, find what makes you happy, and do it.

That whole scene is one of the most perfect scenes in television. George Mason's scenes in this series have been so perfect. Xander Berkley is an amazing actor and he plays this series beautifully.

His advice is what will influence me for my major choices, and I hope I remember it. However, as a fortune cookie said today, 'Advise is like snow, let it settle softly and it will be firmer.' I think it means don't take advice too literally, but don't disregard it. Let it mature in your mind and work its way into your life.

Hilfe.

It's been an hour since I started writing this post, I should get back to my song. I'm sleeping over at home tonight because I need to take my car in early tomorrow. Curse this exhaust pipe. Despite what I said earlier in the blog, I'm still smiling. I'm still happy, and I'm ready to finish this year. I just don't know what happens next year, but then again, I just don't know what happens next week.