HDH

I'm not explaining the title. Think of it as code. It's early afternoon in a miserable London day. I'm not complaining about the weather, it's refreshing, I do, however, feel that it puts off people to visit, and through that medium, that of people visiting, I am allowed to reach the outside world.

I say this because Qian arrived home yesterday. Home as in Mount Clare, the dump where Roehampton sticks the foreign students. Her actual home is back in China, where she wants to be. I saw her for the first time in months today, and it was hard, because I could tell that she, like me, wants to be back in the East. She hates this place maybe as much as I do, maybe less. But she didn't disguise the fact that she, after just one day, wanted to go home. She said it outright.

I have been seriously considering going to China next year, but apparently while she was there it was 38°C, and that number is scary. But still, maybe, maybe.

But seeing her again, speaking to her, it made me realise that I had really missed her and that I do owe her a lot. She gave me a lovely large Chinese fan, and she gave a little present to me for my sister, which is really beyond thoughtfulness. We both need to do resists, so this week will be spent probably doing work. But I appreciate seeing her again, I had forgotten how comforting her voice is, how comforting it is just to be near her.

To say there was an altercation at the house last night isn't quite true, but Katou was angry, it was my fault, and perhaps I take the language barrier for granted. Emma and I know that if we need to talk privately, we just obfuscate and we're either not understood or ignored. However it led to the belief, through a small comedy of unintentional misunderstandings, Katou believed we were bad mouthing him; waluguchi, as he put it. Emma and I didn't manage to sort it out that night, so some bilingual explaining might be on the cards.

But the actions within the house, while I won't go into them, I can see it as a problem at least until Mizuki returns, which may be a while, since we got her return date wrong already. But Dan coming around yesterday proved a fluid catalyst to the dynamic, which due to the recent changes, was necessary. I'm in Southlands with him now, maybe he'll come around again. I have some spare bacon that needs cooking.

Anyway, I probably should work, and so should he. It was wonderful to see Qian again, and I think seeing her probably sorted any issues I had arisen during the revelatory American Beauty viewing. But it's sorted. She, she's the original LL3 girl. It think it had been too long since I saw her. Bless.